Brain Cancer

[alone_in_my_mind]

I'm new here,but I need some advise.. not sympathy, not sarcism just someone to listen...

My wife was diagnosed with brain cancer a year ago.. I dont have insurance so we dont go to the doctor. She does NOT want surgery, or chemo or radiation. She watched her mother die of cancer, and I watched MY mother die from cancer and other things...I am 42 years old this year.. I am sitting here typing while my wife lays in the bed with another migrain. Most days are good, some days are downright horrible. How do I cope? she wants to die "so it will be easier on me( the house gets paid off, not having to worry about finances, etc) and cause she's not used to being like this. She has always been the strong one. tough as nails... never sick until the last couple of years. I don't know how to deal... help??