Essential Tremor

[melovesmusic21]

I JUST WANT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF.......I HAVE NO FUCKING LIFE IM JUST PATHETIC.....I SHAKE IN THE HANDS, AND I ALWAYS GET FIRED EVERY SINCE I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL MCDONALDS FIRED ME BECAUSE THEY SAID I WAS TOO SLOW AND IT LOOKED LIKE I WAS ON DRUGS CAUSE I SHOOK, SAME WITH ALBERTSONS, PIZZA FACOTRY,BLOCKBUSTER, ALL THOSE ASSHOLES JUST LET ME DOWN. THE MILITARY LET ME DOWN AND FIRED ME WHEN I JOINED, I JUST WANT TO KILL MYSELF.....I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE.....PEOPLE FAMILY AND FRIENDS DONT UNDERSTAND MY PERSONAL CONDITION LIKE I DO....THEY KEEP HARRASSING ME ABOUT WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH MYSELF CAREER WISE AND ITS LIKE IM TRAUMATIZED ON GOING TO SCHOOL AND WORK BECAUSE OF MY MEDICAL CONDITION I DONT WANT TO INVEST MY TIME INTO SOMETHING THAT I CANT DO WITH MY SHAKY ASS HANDS AND SHAKY VOICE SOMETIMES THE TREMORS ARE IN MY HEAD THE NERVES ARE JUST BOTHERING ME I DONT HAVE A NEUROLOGIST RIGHT NOW IVE BEEN IN AND OUT OF HOMES BEING HOMELESS I TEMPORARILY GOT INTO TROUBLE WITH THE LAW BECAUSE I HAD A DRINKING PROBLEM BECAUSE OF MY DEPRESSION AND STRESSLIFE....ITS JUST TAKING A TOLL ON ME...I HAVE REALLY BAD DEPRESSION ..IM GIVING UP ON LIFE. I NEED SOME GUIDANCE IM AT THE LAST STRAW WITH MYSELF I NEED A PROFESSIONAL DOCTOR THAT IS WILLING TO INVEST IN ME AND COACH ME. PLEASE EMAIL ME IF YOU CAN PROFESSIONALS PREFERABBLY OR PEOPLE THAT HAVE A NICE CAREER AND KNOW WHAT IM GOING THROUGH PLEASE MENTOR ME AND BRING MY SPIRITS UP CAUSE RIGHT NOW I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE AND KILL MYSELF my email address is : melovesmusic21@aol.com

[heiditm]

OMG is am so sad to read you post. I wish I could offer the guidance you need. I am new on this site and trying my best to cope. Have you contacted any resource agencies in your area for support? What about medication to deal with your depression. I cannot imagine what you must be going through, Don't give up..life it good...it is others that can hurt you by being judgmental or though lack of understanding. Don't give up! Please let us know how you are doing...

[melovesmusic21]

im trying to cope but my depression and tremors always bring me back down. im taking prozac for my depression. ive been kind of homeless moving from state to state so i dont have any permanent physcian that i can call my own. but yeah.....life for me sucks

[heiditm]

I am in Canada and we don't have many permanent physicians here either and going from clinic to clinic telling your story sucks, i know. It is hard to know and feel like you are moving forward when there is so little help and understanding out there. For me, I keep going because I have to for the sake of my children and the fact that \i want to be here for them. I wish you strenght.