Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy (RSD)

[livingwith]

Praying to die but I’m still alive
I have this illness they call RSD I don’t know why it happened to me. Did I make an evil choice to pay such a price I pray to my Lord forgive my plice. All I did was fall in that whole you cut into me and took my soul. I thought it was funny when my legs felt wet. I must be insane I said with regret. But as time went on the burning grew, and blossomed to pain I never imaged I go through. I plead to my Drs and family and friends. But the meds don...Read the full article

[my4kids]

I totally know what you are going through you are not alone. I can remember when I first got hurt I was explaing to everyone how much I hurt and everyone including my family thought how can someone hurt so much. I lost my friends, i had no help from my family, my husband still went out and left me with the kids and meanwhile all I wanted to do was die. I looked at my kids and felt so much guilt especailly for the my daughter who blamed herself since it happened at her softball tournament that she begged me to go to and then i looked at my 2 year old and said what would he feel if he never got to know his mommy. I fight everyday with this horrible day I act like im ok feeling like I can decieve this awful disease. I went back to work in pain like this wore slippers and sweats when my boss wasnt around and took so much pain meds just to take the pain away so I would not lose my house and know SS is trying to make me lose my SS. its a battle i won no settlement since I had to take care of my kids to try and give them the best life since mine was horrible. living in motels losing all our belongings each time we got new ones. making up stories to peolpe why they saw me at a motel. eating food that were out of dented cans from the grocery stores trash cans i did and do not want that for my kids so i asked my doctors give me the most medication that can be prescribed so I can try and give my littles ones a life i know exactly what youre growing through. if you ever need anyone email me at [moderator note: e-mail address has been removed] my hand hurts to type im going to take 2 norcos a xanax and put my 2 new patches of 100 mcg of duragesic on right now since i have to meet with SS office tomorrow. I need to see a shrink but the last one I had was a weirdo and an atjheist who made me feel worse because she wanted me to talk to her about my childhood. do you go 2 one and if so what kind should i look for? thanks name is jacqueline

[jbrown]

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